The desire for elegance, perfection, of becoming as small and beautiful as I can. Friends who hold me so loosely because they don't want me to break, a model who shakes of malnutrition. I can go longer than 60 hours. You look like a man. You look like a pig. You look like a disturbance.

These are ed thoughts and ed is fucking terrible and I'm not excusing it. I'm just getting my feelings out.

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