i remember begging, pleading with you just to let me hang up the phone. you forced all my emotions out and i felt defenseless in the worst way possible. i was sobbing and holding back tears with snot running down my face and while you continued to take advantage of my weakness, mocking my sobs and stuttery words as i asked one last time if i could have the damn PERMISSION to go to bed.

you cackled a bit before whispering "sweet dreams" and the sounds of the click of your cell phone and the endless dial tone drove me to screaming tears.

the thing is, i hope you get the anxiety you fucking caused.

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