i'm quite toxic.
17.
Just before i fall asleep and
when i'm really bored i...laydown and
think for a while until i fall
into a semi-hypnotic state of sub-conciousness
some call it daydreaming, some
call it just fuckin spacing out, but i feel like
i'm not here and it doesn't matter because i'm
sick of putting myselfinto boring situations and
conversations, just everyday
basic sitcom happenings. some call it thinking
but when i'm in this
particular state of mind i forget to think and it
becomes strictly observatory. I notice things
very sensitively like if i focus really hard
I can see small transparent blotches of
debris on the outer shell of my eyes.
(or the conjuctiva). and can only follow it
as my eye moves downward. it's like watching
film footage of amoeba or jelly like
plankton under a microscope. and when
I close my eyes and look up to the sun
the bright orange redness radiates an
intense picture of blood cells or what i
think are blood cells. and they are moving
very rapidly and again i can only focus for
so long before my eyes strain and i have
to look away from the sun into a pillow
and rub my eyes hard then i see
tiny spheres of sparkling light (some call them stars) which only
stay for a second then as my eyes focus
again amongst the water or tears
from rubbing I open then look up to
the sky away from the sun and forget about stupid fucking
little squiggly things moving on the outer
layer of my eyes or the close up
blood cells in my eye lids and i
stare at the sky with peripheral
vision and not trying but just
happening to make out all kinds of
faces, objects, statues in the clouds
and i can do the same with
the wood grain of the panelling
on my walls.
Once i saw Jesus on a tortilla shell.
-kurt cobain
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